Wait wait wait. Just hold your tongue for a minute, before you go sticking it in my mouth or using it to form sweet words that make me feel “special”. Telling me how I am different than any other girl you’ve met. I know I am. So I wanted to preface before you read this little story of my life and try to write yourself in it. You may think again and put me back on the shelf. I’m prepared for that. Trust me, I like it better on the shelf.
Chapter one and two are easy. I’ll let you read those. I’m good at the first and second date, professional almost. But before you go falling in love with my cute, quirky habits or off-beat humor, you might want to know about the third date: If this were any other story, the main character starts to think up her happy ending about now and things progress as society says they should. First date, hold hands, second date, kiss, talk everyday, meet the parents, he asks you to be his girlfriend, then you start taking him to family functions and it’s ok to kiss in front of your mom. Not this novel, it starts to tumble backwards and snaps shut as you turn the page. There are most likely going to be paper cut consequences.
Ready to put me back on the shelf? No? Well that’s okay, this story has legs and just might run away from you. You’re cute, nice and open doors for me; you fit in with my family, take me to nice restaurants and make me laugh. Honestly, you would be a perfect boyfriend, if I were the boyfriend type. But as soon as you take up a pen and doodle in chapter three or four even, I remember how much I like to write. I remember that I don’t want anyone else to decide the ending of my story, even if it is the fairytale type.
It’s nothing personal against you or too cliché as playing hard to get. I’m not playing, I just am. Mostly because I don’t want to be “got”. Each good story must come to an end, this I know, but I need to get to chapter seven or eight before I can add more characters. I'm not against happy endings, I'm just not ready for that part of the story. I like this part too much. I don't want my life to be a romance novel. I want it to be an adventure story. I hear that every classic novel has a love story... I don't want to forget that there is so much more to my story than that. I don’t even care what society’s book review says, “fear of commitment,” “impossible standards,“ or “not giving a guy a chance”. This is how I want to write my story. After all, it is my story.
