Friday, May 17, 2013

Conceited--Can'tSeeit.

When I wan an RA, during staff meeting I just happen to sit across from the reflective window & my staff often caught me gazing into my own eyes. Which is why they continued to say I probably look in to a mirror while I masturbate... (I guess you could say there weren't many taboo conversation topics in staff)

It also probably didn't help when I said things like my residents liked to come in to my room just to look at me...

Maybe people misinterpret my sense of humor?
Or maybe society just doesn't like confident girls.


"You don't know you're beautiful, and that's what makes you beautiful." 
Sound familiar?

What about "Little Things" also by One Directions? Talking about all the things a girl hates about herself and those are all the things this guys loves about her?

God I hate One Direction.

"Girl let me love youuuu and I will love youuuu until you learnnnn to love yourself."

Okay soooo if I want to be loved, I should probably start with self-loathing so someone can rescue me from it. Insecurity makes you beautiful & that's when people will love me.

Why can't these songs be more like, "Girl you know you're the shit and that's the kind of girl I can get wit." (NeYo just let me know if you want to use these lyrics for your next song)

In high school, my best friend and I had a theme song which is where I internalized that it ain't braggin' mother fucker if you back it up. 

Confidence makes people uncomfortable...so do anecdotes about masturbation.  So I guess I have a knack for making people uncomfortable.

I can see some value in humility... if I squint and tilt my head.

BUT: My mother is the queen of being humble. My mom is seriously the SHIT & so many people adore her. But I can never tell if she realizes how wonderful she is because society has taught her that being humble is more important than recognizing your accomplishments and acknowledging the amazing person you are.

Why isn't it okay for me to like who I am and not mind looking in reflective windows? I have so many beautiful friends, people who I love looking at and talking to. They should be able to love their reflection and personality as well. Insecurity shouldn't be a trait we strive for.

We should be allowed to acknowledge our flaws & our strengths and it shouldn't be considered conceited to do so.  As long as you don't cross the line of loving yourself over all others... you should still love yourself & put yourself pretty high on the list of importance, or else why would anyone else value you properly?


I guess I don't really know what I want to come from this blog...
mostly that society sucks

and so does One Direction.